That funny feeling

The fantasy comes on so suddenly
and makes me think, ‘altered reality’
but in reality, it is as it is and that’s
just a fantasy,

she haunts me.

But I’m older by a whisker
eight lives gone and now
a whisper of a former self.

If I woke in the collider
beside her,
we could make it to the stars.

© 2020, John Smallshaw.